
I have always been there for you. Those all yeses I have given you all things you have asked for. The fights like cats and dogs we had not thinking you would actually leave me because I was then sure we could be soon okay. I don't want to find or meet someone else and would start from stratch; getting to know each other, going out, sharing secrets, ranting about anything and then finally feeling that "thing" I have felt when I have convinced myself that perhaps it's you who's going to be my number one. Did you ever feel you're the most important person in my life besides my family ? I meant, after all the things that we have been through, did I ever matter to you ?
There are some regrets I have in me. Regrets that I did not take when I had chances. I just don't regret keeping these things from you. At least now that I'm already gone, no one would bother you anymore about anything"